didn't expect it to hurt this much

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 I can't seem to open my heart to anyone else because it was always him. He set the standard for everything, and even though I know it wasn’t enough love for us to stay together, maybe it was love in its own way. I’ve tried to move on, but the thought of him with someone else still stings. I’m genuinely happy for them; she deserves him, and I hope they’re happy. Yet, throughout all this time, I haven’t found someone new who I feel the same for. As I grow older, I realize I want to be more careful with my heart. I’m okay without him, but that doesn’t mean the longing has faded.

- IY -

Fall

The fall stays in my room
Still not able to forget you
I've been living in the remaining fragrance of you
Guess what, you probably don't know it
But I miss you so much
How are you doing?
How are you doing without me?
My days are really long
Is this always how every parting is?

:) IY (:

Backburner Era

He just miss you but not necessarily wanna be with you

Sometimes people just want something convenient cause they're there

If he really likes you, he'll make it easy for you, he will be clear and not confusing. He will be understanding and kind.

Thanks for the 5mo life lesson, MSA

Those Days (Without You)

The routine of my day without you

It’s quite dreadful

Like a clock without numbers

I try to erase you who is like a bothersome drawing

The littlest things that we recorded down together

The things that only we knew about

I want to throw them all away

Even if i got angry and sulky

I was happy

 

- Zion T -

Me Without Your Presence

We all want to be happy. Happiness is the only thing that makes life worth living. I know we’re going in different directions, and that we won’t be together forever. It sucks that we couldn’t make it work, I am grown up enough now to realize how unfair that is, but I still love you and always will, but sometimes in life things don’t end up how we hope they would. I hope the things that remind you of me don’t bring you anger or sadness. I hope you can look back at them and look at the good times and smile. Live your life to the fullest and be happy!

Thanks for always be with me in 2year & 7months, FM ♡

I Stayed

One thing I've learned about myself after 2.5 year relationship ended.

Me in my entire life in any short of relationship (not just romantically but mostly romantically). I have never broken up with someone, I've never ended something like I've never cut someone out of my life.

Because I was convinced that if I was the one who walk away, that means I was giving up on them, and I never wanted anyone to feel like I gave up on them.

Probably because I never wanted anyone to give up on me and how could I do that to someone else? So I stayed so many times in the worst worst condition. Solely because I wanted to make sure that the people knew that I would never give up on them.

Because in my heart of hearts, I will love someone until they tell me not to. I will love them with my whole heart until they tell me they don't want me to, and I don't know how to not do that to people, I don't know how to not give them every ounce of my soul, every ounce of who I am to make something better for them.

Pluto Projector

Rex Orange County - Pluto Projector

"Stay forever, you know more than anyone"

Pluto Projector is about “am I truly enough for my partner?” Can we keep this love alive? Seventy million projector is the wide lens cameras that capture movies in larger and wider aspect ratios it means that I have much more to offer in this relationship than anyone would ever do, and wishes that these feelings would last forever.

Understanding yourself is an ongoing journey. Life goes on and so will ‘you’ as a person subject to change. In a perfect relationship, the two people are not meant to be alike, but like the exact opposites that fit perfectly like jigsaw puzzles. How supportive each other should be in a relationship. We should know each other. We should share each other’s secrets. Love and support each other to grow and be the best version of ourselves is the key to a happy life.

Home

 

The biggest mistake we make is that we build our homes in other people. We build those homes and we decorate them with the love and care and respect that makes us feel safe at the end of the day. We invest in other people, and we evaluate our self-worth based on how much those homes welcome us. But what many don't realize is that when you build your home in other people, you give them the power to make you homeless. When those people walk away, those homes walk away with them, and all of a sudden, we feel empty because everything that we had within us, we put into them. We trusted someone else with piece of us. The emptiness we feel doesn't mean we have nothing to give, or that we have nothing within us. It's just tat we build our home in the wrong place

-Welcome Home by Najwa Zebian-

Game Over

And the game is over

My last relationship taught me : You can be the whole package at the wrong adress. And so they invented the word "forever" as a temporary escape. Please understand if i see you again don't even say hello

Mocca feat Gardika Gigih - Ketika Semua Telah Berakhir

Maybe If

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BIBI - Maybe If

Maybe If I

Woke up in the morning

Hearing your voice

May If I was with you

Maybe, If we spent our diffcult days together

what would we have been?

Stay

I'm not simple. Loving me will never be easy. I bring every travesty that's rocked me- with me, to the table. I won't pretend to be something i'm not, and i don't expect you to be belmish free either. That's much too boring of an exristance. A past means you've loved, you've prevailed. My ears are open. My heart is accepting. I want to know who you are. I want to know what made you and i want to feel free to share the 'not so pretty' parts of me with you.

"Oh you never really love someone until, you learn to forgive"
Ben & Ben - Leaves

You can still love them until you don't

You can still love them even when you've unfollowed each other
You can still love them even when they're no longer talking to you
You can still love them even when you've both realized you're not right for each other
You can still love them even when it's though because they'e no longer yours
You can still love them even when you thought you've moved on from them
You can still love them from afar
You can still love them though its hurts

It's okay, you can still love them until you don't
- Catwomanizer - 

What a Beautiful Life

There's so much more to life than finding someone who will want you, or being sad over someone who doesn't. There's a lot of wonderful time to be spent discovering yourself without hoping someone will fall in love with you along the way, and it doesn't need to be painful or empty. You need to fill yourself with love. Not anyone else. Become a whole being on your own. Go on adventures, fall asleep in the woods with friends, wander around the city at night, sit in a coffe shop on your own, write on bathroom stalls, leave a notes in library books, dress up for yourself, give to other, smile a lot. Do all things with love, but don't romanticize life like you can't survive without it. Live for yourself and be happy on your own. It isn't any less beautiful. I promise

Fluttering Heart

Nowadays, I become sensitive about my feelings. Sometimes feelings brust into flames, as i get older i feel there's nothing special about romance. After i met you, i felt the situation actually make me sensitive about romance again. I think i like you. Kina ❤

Me to Me

Finally we met!

I believe that we should meet earlier, you are me! and i am you! We're like a partner in crime now. Wes Anderson once said that creativity is like breathing. The inhale is just important as the exhale. From now on, let's enjoy us being together, and let me help you express everything you want to express.

Promise me one thing, when you put me on, look at the mirror, smile and say you believe in you!

Never Settle For Less

It’s better than having no relationship at all than having a relationship that’s no longer what you want or need. Previously I was in a relationship where I fell out of love. I’ve learned from that experience that to act like you are in love with someone when you’re actually not is probably one of the most painful experiences that life can throw at you. 

When the three simple words, I love you, becomes so hard, not just because it’s a lie, but also because it’s partially true — that you had loved. Had.

If you don’t love them anymore, let them go. Let yourself go. Even its not an easy way to settle down your feeling and your fragile heart after a heart break.

But here i am, trying to acccept all the things after all of this. Make my self happy. Now i can sing Mitch James - Brigth Blue Skies in every morning when i started a day. Have a bless life! 

I'll be fine here on my own
I thought you were the one for me but I was wrong
I can see the bright blue skies now that you're gone
I don't need a goddamn thing from anyone

Mitch James


 

When We Have to Break Up with a Good Guy...

When we have to break up with a polite, nice and good guy...Well, don’t feel guilty. 

If we really feel like we're not happy with him, what else are you holding on to? If it's forced, it's the same as we lied to him. What's the point if we hang out with him, our mind drifts to another guy? Imagine that we are treated like that.

When we really have to break up with him, don't just think about the good things about him. We can feel guilty for life! Think about how your relationship will be broken later. It could be that we actually prevented him from finding someone who can love him more than we do. It takes two to tango girls! If one isn't in line, in the end you two won't be happy.

So How Can I Make a Move?

We're all ever been smitten by someone. Yes, I am just a girl. Sometimes to make a move and show if I was interested in the boy is very difficult to be shown. If you start first, it seem aggressive. But if you stay still, he will never notice your existence. It's awry indeed be a woman...

Jealousy

I think I'm not the type of person who is easily jealous to my partner. And it wells up inside my mind, with a unique mix of sadness, competition, anger. Just because i saw you with your ex, i became a green monster. I just realized it I'm a very jealous person. Even when youre not actually mine...

We Should Fall In Love More

People should fall in love more. Fall in love with the way your coffee swirls as soon as you pour the milk in. Fall in love with the look your dog gives you when you wake up. Fall in love with the rare moment when your car doesn't ignore you. Fall in love with the person who tells you to have a good day. Fall in love with the waiter who gives you extra chili fries. Fall in love with sweaters in winter and cold lemonade in summer. Fall in love with the moment you head hits the pillow. Fall in love with talking to someone until 4 a.m. Fall in love with the days you can hit the snooze button over and over again. Fall in love when a lover stares as you for five hours. Fall in love with the stars when they look at you. Fall in love with the sound of someone breathing. Fall in love with the bus if it's on time or the train if it comes early. Fall in love with everything possible.
-Courtney Peppernell-