I Stayed

One thing I've learned about myself after 2.5 year relationship ended.

Me in my entire life in any short of relationship (not just romantically but mostly romantically). I have never broken up with someone, I've never ended something like I've never cut someone out of my life.

Because I was convinced that if I was the one who walk away, that means I was giving up on them, and I never wanted anyone to feel like I gave up on them.

Probably because I never wanted anyone to give up on me and how could I do that to someone else? So I stayed so many times in the worst worst condition. Solely because I wanted to make sure that the people knew that I would never give up on them.

Because in my heart of hearts, I will love someone until they tell me not to. I will love them with my whole heart until they tell me they don't want me to, and I don't know how to not do that to people, I don't know how to not give them every ounce of my soul, every ounce of who I am to make something better for them.