Karma does exist

Actually i just having some thought last night. i want to write it but i forgot already what i was thinking last night. its a long night when i can't sleep easily and started to think so much about life. and i just a lil bit remember i cried last night because i remember all the things that change in this day.

Now the condition is totally different...

Before

The situation is very different, once you looked at me and I did not look at you, there is no sense at all that grows to like you. But you just keep trying to make me happy, and look at you. I even remember how once your're so kind to me. You trying to make me familiar, and comfortable. I used to refuse to hold your hand, I used to refuse to put a picture of the two of us in social media, I refused our relationship shown in the public.

 

Now when I started to feel that I love you, you divert your eyes. all i know that you kind, warm, and delightful to me, but now you ignored me. You turn your face away, and I feel that this is my karma. first I did not look at you and ignore you, now I know how it feels, it's hurting. Now I know how painful it is when you are not considered, when you no longer want to take photos, when you no longer hold my hand as we go along, as now you do not want people to know about our relationship, now I know. I'm sorry and just realized it now. You should not be made ​​me get used and convenient because of familiarity. Now I feel lost the old you.

I am the type of person who does not show tears in front of others, yesterday when I met you, my feelings were not known. before meeting you yesterday, I've been crying in the room beforehand. because something hurts. and when to meet you, I remember something that made ​​me cry. I cried in front of you, in fact I do not want to do that, I am embarrassed to cry in front of other people, because I feel my heart is sick and I could not hold back my tears. at that point I just need someone to lean on, I just wanted to excite painful feelings. perhaps you are wondering why I was crying, I was crying because there is a very painful thing, because i know, it really hurts to love someone.